Hi Sheila, Sorry to hear that! It’s certainly true that we use a wide variety of guided techniques to help create focus and a warm-hearted ‘interest’ that engages manas – our experiencing mind. Eventually the purpose of such techniques is to allow that focused interest to so calm the ripples upon the lake of manas that it quietens down… and settles so much that we can start to see a reflection of the Inner Self. That kind of connectedness is inexpressibly beautiful. 🙂

However, this approach doesn’t work for everyone. Some need to simply become a witness and gradually detach from all thoughts, emotions, sensations. Others find that simple non-thinking does it, or non-being. And others are happier with a mantra, or their breathing, or the brahmari breath etc.

In the end, the destination is all that’s important; the route is simply that which works best for us. The goal, in general, is a place of silence, stillness, connectedness that is intrinsically fulfilling. The simple presence of real being.

Do feel free to reach out to me (Andrew) if you’d like to explore some other ways of meditation that might help, or if you’d like to see us offer other ways that do help you.

All our very best wishes to you!